-Gary Thomas, "Authentic Faith"
Don't you love it when you read a passage from Scripture or from a saintly person, and God pokes you with a "This means you!" That happened to me this morning with a meditation passage from Frances de Sales that said: "Nothing stands in the way of our spiritual growth more than self-love or a sense of self-importance."
I can no more get rid of my need for recognition than I can change my fingers. I need God's grace to do so, and I've confessed and asked for grace. But as I mindfully look at my day today, I see that I haven't made much progress in the self-importance front. Indeed, I internally complain about a pattern in my career in which others have gotten credit for my work.
Perhaps that is why it happens a lot. The Lord is trying to work out my own need for recognition, trying to help me to find contentment.
I loved Gary Thomas' quote above, although I have to say that doing God's Will hasn't been the fast track to peace and quiet for me. But I do need to remember, as Frances de Sales points out: "We have come to expect that our prayers - our life - should be steeped in orange water, our virtues nourished by a diet of candy. As a result we forget Jesus prostrate on the ground, sweating blood and water in agony, because of the deadly conflict in his soul. Self-love blinds us, makes us forget how it really is."